Month: May 2019

My Vision

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This is somewhat related to my “Year End Review One AND Two” post, so for background as to where I’ve come from, read that first. If you’re a superstar and you already have read that, continue reading this.

The question, as presented to me by my dear Biological Science Scholar Mentor Melissa Basford, is what is my vision statement and my statement of action? To which I respond: I have no freaking idea. I came into college with this idealized model of what it would be like and what I would do. And, as I stated in my “Resume” post, NONE of what I thought would happen actually happened. At all . . . So I feel like I would be doing a disservice stating everything I want to do and what I hope to become before I graduate and (hopefully) go off to grad school. I need to mold into the person I am meant to be instead of the person I want to be in the future. And if I am to do this, why would I set this long list of “I will…” and “I plan to…”  knowing that there is a 99% chance that what I want to happen will never quite happen the way I want it to. With that being said, here is a general self reminder for myself. I think it’s better than a vision statement for a vision that will probably never happen completely the way I want my perfectionist mind to.

  1. You are meant to be here.
  2. Everything happens for a reason.
  3. No matter what it looks like to you, you are always doing enough for pre-med.
  4. Support your friends in their goals and ambitions. If they are the right friends, they will do the same for you.
  5. Study more than you think, you need the good grades.
  6. Do more facemasks, and take more mental time for yourself.
  7. Pursue your ambitions. Many doors will be smacked shut in your face (i.e. sophomore year spring), but that only leaves the right ones for you to waltz on it. Perfect that waltz through all the interviews and hard work. You have big things coming.
  8. Keep volunteering, you know it keeps you human.
  9. Keep finding opportunities for yourself.
  10. Don’t forget to call your parents and tell them your accomplishments. They love you lots and always brag about you. Keep giving them stuff to brag about!

Abstract

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Hey all, you’ve made it here so props to you for finding me in the most obscure way possible. What you’ll find here is probably the most sporadic collection of posts about my life here at OSU. This mini project was put as a requirement for the Biological Science Scholars for qualifications for the program. I’ll try to keep this as up to date as possible for now on, but life can really get in the way. So, as a list, you will find:

  1. Semester and Year in Review posts highlighting my time here at OSU and everything I’ve learned in and out of the classroom.
  2. G.O.A.L.S. of mine, highlighting how I am implementing Honors and Scholars values.
  3. “Artifacts” of my time here highlighting the adventures I go on here and the passions I develop.
  4. Career updates and what I am doing to further my career in my preprofessional program
  5. Stuff just about me as a person since I am, after all, more than what I study and the preprofessional program I do.
  6. Possible random posts that are labeled as “Uncategorized” when I make posts on here.

I hope you enjoy the blog.

A Year in Review Post One AND Two

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This is more going to be my underclassman experience in review, since after all freshman year is long gone and to comment on it now as a completely different person. My look on it now is much different as I learned more about myself through sophomore year and looked at events in my freshman year differently. I was supposed to do this last year but, I did not. Such is life. We will knock out two birds with one stone since, if I were to have done a post like this a year ago, I would probably look back on it thinking about how generally clueless I was freshman year. So, here we go.

The first two years of undergrad were… hard… to say the least. Coming out of sophomore, I am a much different person than the 18 year old coming in. It seemed that everything that could happen, did happen in a bad sense. And as a result, I struggled. A lot. But through all of the bad stuff that happened, there was so much more good in my life that made up for the fact that it seemed like my collegiate world was falling apart around me. I built great friendships, some of which were there for a season and a reason. While others I see lasting for a lifetime. I had great experiences that no other college could provide me with. And I was cognitively pushed more than I thought I would ever be. I found a major that, through its flaws, I love and can truly care about. These first two years taught me perseverance in the most raw way, pushing through bad days and classes that seemed impossible to get through.

Speaking specifically on freshman year, I was nothing compared to sophomore year. Little did I know, the struggles I went through the first year would only make me more strong for second year. I specifically learned to stand up for myself and say NO. I learned to be kind and resilient while still standing my ground and being my own advocate. This lesson really impacted me my second year standing up to bullies. You wouldn’t think that they would still exist in college. In fact, you’d think they would be a thing of high school rather than when we are all struggling in college together. But they still exist, and they are more manipulative and scary than you would ever think. And the vivacity that I learned to harness freshman year allowed me to get past some of the toughest classes, people, and situations ever. 

But in all the pushing and clawing and kicking, these first two years also taught me about what it means to take care of yourself. Mental health was never on the forefront of my list of priorities, and quite frankly I thought I had everything under control. This was a lie that college, specifically my second year of college, only amplified. While I was coming to terms with it late fall through the summer of freshman year, sophomore year said ” let’s take this problem head-on.” And that realization has turned into a now years long learning curve that I am still learning to work with. And not every day is a win. The reality is that every day you wake up, that is your brain doing that for you. And where you are that day is where you are, as cliche as that sounds in a mental sense. It is up to you to not only realize and understand that, but to not separate yourself from reality. Instead, let it carry you through the day and make room for acknowledgement of changes in yourself and forgive yourself if you have an off day. Be the best you can be, but understand that the body that holds your spirit may not be at the same level and mindset at all times. Save space for others to understand where you are. Finally, understand that not everybody you work with on a daily basis will be at their best, and that it is up to you to navigate different brains and moods. This was something I learned through Dance 5106, where my teacher Gina emphasized this truth in an environment where you leave everything at the door and focus on  yourself only. It’s such a big lesson thats hard to put into words but I tried my best.

Every day I wake up, I know that I am where I am in life for a reason. And I am meant to be here at OSU. I’m thankful for every opportunity I get at this great school and I cannot wait for the challenges and adventures that lie ahead.

My (New) Resume/CV

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Hey there friends,

In 2017, I posted a potential resume for things I wanted to accomplish and where I saw myself going at OSU. Well, surprise surprise, that resume turned out to be completely inaccurate, and to keep it up would be a disservice to what I have actually done, which is so much better than what freshman year me thought that I was capable of. I have accomplished so much already in a short two years, and I can’t wait to see how much more I accomplish before my time here is finished. So, without further adieu, here is my complete resume/CV.

Kaiser Resume MASTER DOC copy

More Artifacts!

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“Who You Are”

This is my first major choreographic work that I put on dancers. Coming into my second semester of my second year, I found out I fractured my back and had a slew of problems that basically signalled that my time as a dancer was finite. I always wanted to keep dance in my life. Art in it of itself keeps me sane between the pre-med courses and the busy life I lead. So obviously you can see how much of a blow this was. I stretched myself to do more choreography rather than dancing to keep what I love in my life, just in a way I never thought I would imagine. It was so rewarding and I am thankful for this opportunity to make me a more well rounded student and allow me to think about things through a different lens. Special shoutout to the new club, Studio Dance, that allowed me to choreograph and be a part of this family in its first year and make an impact on the club and its foundings. I am super excited for what’s to come for this dance family, and I can’t wait to be a part of it. Below you’ll find some still photos of the dance if viewing the video isn’t working for you at this very moment.