Standing Up

I entered the Undergraduate Research Office’s Fall Research Festival in the category of Images of Research + Arts. After not hearing back, I reached out again to find out that I had won, but because they didn’t receive more submissions they decided not to extend recognition or include this category. I understood the decision, but something didn’t sit right with me so after some soul searching, I sent an email explaining my perception as a student.

I have spent my 4 years at Ohio State trying to integrate my passion for science with artistic talent. I am driven by the belief that the visualization of scientific concepts and processes through art makes the field accessible to the public. Science should be made approachable and open access so to touch more minds and perspectives. That is why this category has always had a special place in my heart. Skipping this semester sends the message that the arts are not important and hard work, amid a pandemic nonetheless, does not pay off.

I dreamed of being involved in research to such an extent that I could enter this competition my senior year, and I achieved that goal. Instead of pursuing other categories I wanted to continue to be a proponent for the combination of the arts and research. Pushing this boundary in a time where the arts and creative endeavor still feels undervalued. If nothing else, I am proud of myself for standing up for what I believe in.

Digital Art: Project 3

Women in the Bible

There are two types of sexism: hostile and benevolent. Hostile sexism aims to punish women for breaking the mold while benevolent rewards them for being all things good, subservient, submissive, nurturing, beautiful, and so on. Although benevolent sexism may appear chivalrous, its purpose is to keep women in their traditional roles, which we know to be limiting, underpaid, and even harmful. Benevolent sexism, easily overlooked, is uniquely positioned to wield power over subconscious attitudes. Nowhere did I feel this more prominently in my own life than within my faith communities. I began to wonder if the Christian fundamental text, the Bible itself, reflected these justifications for power structures. Thus, I decided to read the Bible through this lens for myself, using class training to recognize these sexisms.

To limit bias, I systematically sampled every 20 pages, dividing my scans between the Old and New Testaments. I then read these 75 pages, highlighting when women were mentioned. If it was a neutral or positive reference I used blue, hostile examples became red, and benevolent statements were yellow. I manipulated blending modes to overlay pages and provided a few supporting details. Visualizing the Bible this way, I was able to generate four conclusions. First, the Old Testament appears to have more sexism than the New Testament. Second, there was more hostile than benevolent sexism. Third, men are still vastly overrepresented; the black text overwhelms all color. Fourth, the Old Testament is far larger than the New. I hope viewers may interpret my piece freely and develop their own views about how the Bible supports women from the data.

Digital Art: Project 2

NeuroSexism

Male has been seen as the default sex throughout time and place. This privilege manifests itself in many ways, with my project focusing on that of male-oriented medicine. More often than not, at all steps of the drug development process, there appears a bias towards the male. At the earliest stages of neuroscientific research, rat models are used. These rats are typically, and unnecessarily, male. At the level of human clinical testing, there is also an overrepresentation of men, but this issue is not always resolved with detailed analyses. Thus, even when women are present, as now required by the NIH, results may still be averaged across sex.

When drugs are developed using male-typical neural pathways, this methodology can overlook the side effects female subjects experience. The outcome is a growing number of news articles reporting women getting the wrong dose, adverse effects, and so on: I created my art piece to raise awareness to this phenomenon. Neurosexism isn’t benign. Working to correct this issue isn’t a petty step on the march to equality, it has very real health consequences. To do this, I created a metaphor using the male-patterned key and male-symbol only keyholes to show that amid other combinations, only they have the ability to open all doors to the research and medicine that lies behind. My goal has always been to make art on complex topics that is accessible to the non-scientific community.

Time Spent Home

What do I do for fun? Walk my cat!

In all seriousness, I had a really nice, restorative weekend at home. When I went off to college I was determined to stay active in my brother’s life. This weekend I supported him in his faith and musical journey.

More than Music

“I will forever be grateful”

This week I’ve been reflecting on the role of music in my life. At the end of my high school experience I wrote, “Much of my character I owe to music, which began as a fun hobby and grew to encompass more than instruments, notes, and rhythms. The band program has provided me with countless opportunities that have shaped my life from lifelong friendships to extra performance and community service events. I will forever be grateful.”

This sentiment has held true as I still have the friendships forged in countless hours of rehearsal, sweating under the sun, sleeping on a bus, and am as grateful as ever for it. Music taught me grit and perseverance. In preparing music for competitions I learned to break down a goal into smaller subsections, be patient in playing the same line over and over, self-monitor as I practiced for an event three months into the future, and control over performance anxiety as I stepped onto stage in front of an audience and judges. Sometimes the emotional expression that comes with pouring your heart into a piece was reward itself.

However, music was certainly not all work and no play. I smile thinking of goofy games in the bleachers, throwing soap suds at a fundraising car wash, or running around Disney & Universal on a performance trip. In my time at OSU I joined the Collegiate Winds and Buckeye Flutes. Even though I did not choose to pursue music as a career, I hope to keep playing on the side, whether that be in a community band or at religious services.

OSU Bucket List

As a freshman, I made it my personal mission to explore campus. New to OSU, I was still making friends and quickly learned sometimes I’d just have to be comfortable making plans with myself. Thus, between classes to clear my mind I’d visit every cool spot, museum, hidden gem, garden, gallery, and art piece I could find. Having ventured into most academic building at least once, I discovered a lot of interesting views and study spaces I’d never heard about before.

It is now my senior year, and I had just a few more items to cross off my list. So, on a fall day that was just too beautiful to be inside, I met my goal!

Digital Art: Project 1

Technology and the Collective Unconscious

The Collective Unconscious, as first proposed by psychologist Carl Jung, is fundamentally based upon the idea of innate, universal knowledge. However, the availability of information has been vastly expanded since the conception of the Internet. Sharing in the unspoken meaning made available by tech has never been easier. My digital art piece was developed to generate a sense of both peace and foreboding to represent both how comfortable we are living in this landscape while being unaware of its effects. Research has shown people to be poor judges of truth. They fall prey to unconscious biases, and wrap themselves in a ‘media bubble.’ I hope my work will raise awareness to our individual involvement in this much larger world so to question the pervasiveness of media and technology, against the backdrop of passivity. To do this I depicted a person floating in a glass light bulb (representing their thoughts and bubble). The oxygen mask is to show how they live and breathe through the medium of the world at large, the environment made up of tech and social networks.

Note: This is my original work, reproductions are prohibited.

New Autumn Semester

Sometimes life gets away from you and you’re either so busy or so living in the moment you look back and realize, “I haven’t posted in three months!” I’m now five weeks into my final semester at Ohio State and it looks very different than I ever would have imagined. All of my classes are online, asynchronous, and it’s my duty to be more coordinated than ever. While I’m known to be organized, adapting to the online format has presented a real challenge for me. However, I’m determined to use this stage of my life to become stronger with each challenge and self-reflection earned.

For instance, my conviction to be in community and service with others has been renewed as I lean on my support network and use my experience to better mentor others. To this point, I cannot express how much joy the incoming class of Humanities Scholars have brought me. They are an inclusive, lively bunch that were all too eager to bring me into their esteem. As an upperclassman, I was able to give them advice and reassurance before they even came to campus. (One took to calling me the guardian angel of the chat.)

Their enthusiasm motivated me to go above and beyond in spearheading programming for scholars this fall. My Communications Committee created member spotlights on Instagram, a campus scavenger hunt series, dorm decoration highlights, social GroupMe’s, food tours, and more. It is great to see people so creative and flexible in designing new programming. We are especially excited that all of our promotional material paid off in getting 60 new members registered for BuckeyeThon, which is currently the top fundraising team of the university!

In summation, this semester has been trying in new ways, and some days I don’t succeed, but we are at least doing our best to be a bit more gracious towards ourselves and others.

Freshman doing my scavenger hunt, featuring the Whispering Wall.

YWCA Birthday Bag Project

My family has been assisting the Birthday Bag Project since its conception. It began as a Gold Award project for a Girl Scout at my parish, one designed to be maintained for years to come by partnering with the Knights of Columbus. Its mission is to provide birthday supplies and small gifts to children in underserved communities around Canton, Ohio who would not be able to throw a party or celebrate a birthday otherwise.

Being a part of this from middle school onward taught me to be ever more grateful for not only what I have (teens are notoriously materialistic) but for the goodness that lies in others. It sparks joy to spread joy, and that desire to serve others has remained with me year after year as we load up the car with collected donations and deliver them to the YWCA. This close tie to the center later led to my volunteering to work with some of these kids directly in the onsite classrooms. However, it’s important to remember to always give expecting nothing in return. That is the Golden Rule.

G – Global

OSU Office of International Affairs Photography Competition 

“My first night on the boarder of France ended in a night walk on the beach. Out of the haze loomed these peculiarly scraggly trees, the likes of which I’ve never seen before, offset by the distant lighthouse. Captivated by the ambiance, I took this shot. Purely of personal sentiment, this picture shifted photography from simply a passion to a serious academic pursuit in my life as I began entering it in art shows.”

I was on a bus with a group of fellow scholars students on our way to tour the Byrd Polar and Climate Research Center when I received an email saying, “Congrats! Your photo has been accepted…” I was so shocked all I could say was, “you guys…” and they cheered for me right there on the bus. I was so humbled to attend the exhibition opening reception where the photos were to be displayed in the Ohio Union. I try to use my art to connect with others, so hearing that a piece was successful in conveying a feeling or captivating the mind is very rewarding. I have not been able to travel outside of the country since this trip, but I hope to do so again soon (after the COVID-19 Pandemic clears of course).