Dear Journal or Diary or Whatever,
I’ve been away from home for I don’t know how long. I’ve honestly lost track. Mike got mad and threw my phone at the wall. I have had no contact with my friends or parents. I missed my high school graduation, but I have no idea if anyone in my family would have noticed. My mom is always at work, and my dad is a drunk. My friends probably were worried, but Mike says they are too stupid and don’t really care about me. He says they don’t care about me they way he cares, and never will. He says he cares too much and that is why he gets so mad. That’s why he threw my phone. Because he cares, too much. I was the one that started the fight. It was over something stupid and I regret it.
Mike has been getting way more angry lately. At first we were so happy. One day it just flipped. He told me he was stressed. He demanded we have sex because he needed it and had waited too long. He told me he had no source of income anymore and was starting to worry about how he was going to pay rent. I feel sad for him and want to help. I hate when he is stressed and feel an obligation to make him happy.
A weird thing happened. Mike brought up the possibility of me having sex with men for money. He made a joke that he was going to make me regardless. He was drunk when he said this.
I am praying things get better,
-Jen