first week (in document form if needed)
My First Week at OSU
My first week at OSU just finished. I have never been so apprehensive and terrified in my whole entire life. I have not yet really gotten into the swing of things; I’m always tired, I always have too much to do, and I’m almost always in my dorm room. It wasn’t a bad first week, not at all, it’s just a crazy new experience that I haven’t really learned how to deal with yet. So far, I’m trying to stay excited. I’m excited that I have all this new freedom but, at the same time, I’m not really sure what to do with it. This first week has shown me that I can really spend my time doing whatever I want but I’m not exactly sure what it is that I want to be doing with my time! I go to classes, I find places to eat, I explore High Street occasionally, and I spend copious amounts of time napping.
Along with my excitement, however, I do feel quite a bit of fear and trepidation towards this new event in my life. It’s scary! I’m so afraid of not doing well and even potentially failing and it terrifies me. Ohio State is scary in a lot of aspects, including its size. I fear that there are so many people here that I actually won’t be able to befriend anyone. I hope I eventually find my niche, I probably will, but in the meantime I’m trying to put on a brave face in front of the storm. My first week was awkward and weird and a sort of out-of-body experience, really, but I’m hoping it gets better with the passage of time.
I’m hoping with my humanities community that I’ll be able to open myself up to a broad array of people and things that I otherwise would not open myself up to. I hope I can find a sense of home away from home with my scholars group and I hope I can have an amazing time here.