“What do you want to be when you grow up?”
I think about that question a lot. It’s an odd question to think about, but during my time in medical school, I realized how important it is. In our world, it is actually a privilege for a child to even be able to answer the question at all. For too many children, life is more about surviving than thriving. “What profession do you want in 10 years?” Can be a difficult question to answer when posed to a child who doesn’t know where their next meal is coming from or where they are going to sleep next month. The truth is, not everyone gets to have a long term perspective on life, and that is where we are failing children.
When I was in undergrad, I took a philosophy class in which we discussed why people make the decisions they make. One of the ideas I was intrigued by was the Socratic concept that “to know the good is to do the good.” Basically, every decision a person makes is what we think is the best decision. When we order the salad instead of the pasta at dinner, it’s because we have prioritized what we believe is the “long term good”. We sacrifice the satisfaction of the better tasting pasta for the nutrition of the salad because we know that is “good”. But if we give in and order the pasta, we still made the decision we believe is best. The pasta is a pursuit of a shorter term “good”, but it is our own idea of “good” nonetheless.
If you view the world through this lens, it can provide some important perspective on why humans make the decisions we do. We are all out here just doing our best!
But like, what’s my point? How does this tie into “professionalism”?
The point: everyday I get to weigh decisions about what is “good” in both the short term, and the long term. That chance is not afforded to everyone. Opportunity is really just having more ways to know the “good” and to do it. This ties into professionalism because the “good” that I know is that kids need a chance to know a long term “good”. One of the kids I have tried to help achieve a long term perspective of what is “good” is my mentee through Franklin County Children Services, Daquan. More than anything else, I think our relationship speaks to some of my values that will help me maintain professionalism as a pediatrician.
The Simba program is a special subset of of FCCS in which black males mentor younger black males. I felt like I should be a part of this program because I would be able to relate well to a mentee who might share some of my own llife experiences. The truth is, Daquan and I grew up completely differently in a lot of ways, but we still had plenty of things in common.
The first time we met, I took Daquan to BW3s for some wings. He didn’t say anything. He sat at the table with his headphones on, eating silently, and only looking up from the game on his phone to answer my questions with one word. He was polite enough but I was worried we wouldn’t be able to develop a relationship at first. As we spent more time together, conversations got easier and easier and he wore his headphones less and less. I learned that he is such a nice kid but can get caught up in peer pressure. He tends to follow what his friends do. Luckily he has an awesome foster mother named Ms. Fawnda who is not afraid to keep him in check. Sometimes when I would come to pick him up, Ms. Fawnda would tell me he had been getting in some trouble at school or getting bad grades and ask me to talk to him about it. We would talk our way through those problems and he would always correct his behavior by the next time I saw him. In the roughly 3 years I have known Daquan, he went from being forced into high school because he was going to age out to not even requiring summer classes.
We solved a lot of the immediate problems together, but he still always had a short term perspective on life. He wasn’t getting good grades because in his mind, the only reason to get good grades was because people were telling him to. He hadn’t made the connection between the grades and his long term participation in society. So all of our best conversations came when I would ask him what he hoped for in life. I was thrilled when he told me he was interested in culinary school. Daquan and I had always bonded over food. We loved going to different restaurants to talk. For his birthday every year, we throw down on the grill for the whole neighborhood. Not too many kids want to make the ribs, burgers, hot dogs, baked beans, and corn for everyone else at their own birthday, but that’s how Daquan is and it makes me so happy that he always wants me to help.
I really get to know Daquan better when we talk about his hopes and dreams. Like everyone else, where we wants to be is tied closely to where he’s been. I’ve learned about his family and how it feels to have parents who take care of their other kids, but not him. I learned about how he felt when he learned that his grandma had gained custody of him, but days before he was supposed to move in, she suffered a debilitating stroke. I’ve even helped him navigate some relationships and talked to him about the birds and the bees.
All I’m really trying to say is that Daquan and kids like him really deserve a chance. I want them to be able to make decisions with the long term “good” in mind because they are truly just out here doing their best.