When I started school in the fall, I had expectations for how I thought my freshman year at OSU would turn out. I knew classes would be difficult and that I would have to put more effort into my school work than I did in high school. I thought that it would be easy going to school far away from my family because I grew up in Columbus and knew the area. I believed I wouldn’t have time to miss home or obsess over grades because I would be too busy enjoying college life and making friends. But, as I have now realized after completing my first year at OSU, you cannot rely on expectations.
Now, having finished my spring semester, I can honestly say that I had a good year. But if I had been asked in October or November if I was having a good year, I would have probably said I was stressed, overwhelmed, and wanted to give up. When I had several midterms, a lab, and an essay due in the same week, I didn’t believe I could study and get all of my assignments done on time. I wanted everything I turned in to be perfect. Therefore, it would take me hours to complete one assignment and check over it repeatedly for errors. By the time the second semester started, I felt burned out and didn’t know if I was strong enough to continue with the same routine because I never let myself relax. On top of school work, I felt homesick and didn’t prioritize making new friends, so I was disappointed in myself because I wasn’t having the college experience I was expecting. It took time for me to realize that it is okay to make mistakes and not fulfill unrealistic expectations. Once I did, everything became more manageable, my mental health improved tremendously, and I began enjoying college.
In addition to classes, I joined the Doctors Without Borders student organization on campus. I attended biweekly meetings where the international organization’s progress was discussed, and fundraisers were planned to raise money for medical supplies. Along with being a general body member of Doctors Without Borders, I am a member of the international travel team that volunteers abroad. Two trips were planned for May of 2020 to Sri Lanka and Ghana. I was selected to go on the trip to Sri Lanka. We have spent the last several months preparing for the trip by organizing fundraisers and learning about the culture in Sri Lanka. We were planning on volunteering at several hospitals, clinics, and other medical facilities over a two week period. Unfortunately, the trip was canceled due to the coronavirus pandemic. Even though I am disappointed that I do not get to volunteer in Sri Lanka this summer, I am grateful for the people I have met through the student organization and the lessons I have learned from being a member of the club and international travel team.
Overall, I learned a lot about myself this year and how I can continue to grow as a person. Although the second half of my spring semester had to be administered online, I am glad I had the chance to finish my classes and spend time with my family while I wait to start my second year at OSU.