Dear Grandpa,
It’s been a little over 5 years now since you passed, yet I miss you more and more everyday, it seems like. I have heard many people say, “Grief is a journey,” and, honestly, until I lost you, I had no clue what they meant. Now I understand. Some days are joyful and beautiful, but others are depressing and just miserable. Sometimes you visit me in my dreams, some days you paint beautiful sunsets for me to appreciate, sometimes you even send me butterflies and cardinals that visit me on my daily walks. But sometimes, you don’t reach out at all. Sometimes I feel so distant from you, and it’s the worst feeling in the world. I miss you! I know you’ve been watching over me, but in case you missed anything, here are some life updates since the dreadful evening of December 4, 2019.
Jonah got married! Remember Sara? Of course you do, how could you forget her? They got married in May, and everybody was there. The colors were pink, yellow, orange, and tan, which reminded me of the sunsets that you always send me. It was the absolute most beautiful day celebrating their love!
Jared’s still around. We will celebrate 7 years in May! I just can’t get rid of him. Just kidding, you know I love him! We talk about you a lot, and we look up to you and Grandma’s love story and relationship. I am so thankful we had such a beautiful example of love in our life.
I got into Ohio State! I will graduate in May. I know, I was supposed to graduate last year, but a LOT changed these past few years. Covid happened (long story), I graduated in the Tinora parking lot, I changed my major, I met my best friends, I lived with Nolan and Tate, I went to numerous concerts, I student taught in the best class of kiddos, and so much more.
Speaking of Ohio State… We just won the National Championship! You should have seen it! Nolan was on TV a lot, Greg and Lisa went to the game in Atlanta, and I celebrated here in Columbus. A time was had, that’s for sure!
Just to name a few… My point is, a LOT has happened, and I wish you were here for it all. Grandma’s doing fine. Just like me, she has her good days and she has her bad days. Remember when I said grief is a journey? Sometimes this journey is beautiful, and other times it is dreadful. We’ll take care of her for you, but she’s more than ready to see you again! She loves you, I love you, we all love you!
Love, your MyKaia
P.S.- You should listen to Luke Combs’ song “Ride Around Heaven.” It reminds me a LOT of you!