Going to college was a big change in my life. I can’t lie and say that I feel a lot different but there have been choices that made an impact on my life. Although it might not seem like a big change, I made the choice to sleep more. In high school, it was not uncommon for me to go throughout the day on little to no sleep. One time it got so bad that I didn’t sleep for three days. Not sleeping for a long time sucks and makes you feel unbelievably tired but then you start to not notice how exhausted you really are. Honestly, it’s kind of scary not realizing how close you are to falling asleep and it doesn’t feel good in the long run.
This has impacted my life in one obvious way: I sleep more. I don’t feel on the brink of exhaustion all the time and I have more energy to do more. I also cut out energy drinks so they won’t keep me up all night. I miss the taste and the boost of energy that energy drinks give me but I don’t miss the side effects such as crashing, caffeine headaches, and heart palpitations they sometimes give me. Overall, cutting our energy drinks and sleeping each night has made me feel better physically and mentally, as well as giving me enough energy to complete all the tasks I have to do.A good night’s rest is really a great thing.
Next year I’d like to continue sleeping each night. I honestly don’t know how I lived on as little sleep as I did. There are other changes I’d like to make. One thing I’d like to do is actually talk to people. I’m not good at talking to people, especially when I just meet them. It takes me a long time to be able to talk to someone and I feel like by the time I’m able to talk to someone, they already have a group of friends and I don’t feel like I belong. It took me all year to be able to hold a conversation with a few people in enr and I still don’t consider anyone a good friend. I also want to join more clubs. I didn’t do much this year and that’s part of the reason I don’t have any friends at OSU yet. I also would like more opportunities to do more service and just get out more. Currently,all the extracurriculars I do are through enr and that’s not enough.
I’m doing these things a little differently because I knew I couldn’t keep up with not getting any sleep. I also know that despite being an introvert and valuing my alone time, if I don’t get out there then my experience at OSU will be lonely. I just want to have a good time at OSU and that’s prompting me to make choices that will ensure that it happens.
Currently, the world around me is OSU. When I’m going anywhere at anytime of the day, I see people jogging. Seeing so many people being healthy makes me want to be healthy. I’m not ready to start jogging everyday but I might drink water instead of soda. I have also taken in the amount of white people. Before starting college, I was told that OSU would be very diverse. I’m sure it is diverse, but I’ve never been surrounded by so many white people in my life. Even though I’m also white, I don’t feel like I fit in. Most of these kids come from wealthier backgrounds than me and have had more advantages, even if they don’t realize it. Seeing so many white people makes me want to actually make OSU more diverse. I don’t feel like I’m giving back yet, but I would like to help inner city kids who grew up in poverty like I did get to college. I got to OSU through the Young Scholars Program, and there really needs to be more programs like that.
The scholars earth month challenge was a really cool idea. There are a lot of things I can do to make an impact on the environment. For example, I didn’t know how bad beef was for the environment. Now that I know more, I want to eat less of it. Eating healthier is better for the environment and it’s definitely better for me. The earth month challenge has helped me realize that not only can I have an effect on the environment, but I can also benefit myself. For the earth month challenge, I wanted to eat less meat and no soda. Although I really enjoy both of those things, cutting it from my diet will benefit me as well as the environment.
Although I don’t feel like I’m where I want to be on a social, academic, or environmental level yet, I have noticed positive growth in myself this year. There are things I will continue to struggle with but through the choices I make and the things I learn, I know that college and being a part of enr scholars will help me achieve greatness within myself.