Italian Clarinet University- Camerino, Italy

  1. In August 2015, I spent ten days in Italy, primarily at the Italian Clarinet University in Camerino. The goal for this expedition was to learn from world renowned teachers and performers through masterclasses, lessons, and concerts. After the festival, I spent three days in Rome to absorb the culture before coming home.IMG_3209

2. As was my intention, I learned a tremendous amount while I was in Italy, and I believe I improved as a clarinetist. However, I also observed that performers my own age, even younger, sounded so much better than I did. While I expected this to happen, it was a sobering realization. Following the trip, I came back to Ohio State and took an audition for placement in bands, and placed substantially lower than I had hoped and expected. Combined, these two occurrences threatened to crush me. I spent weeks, months contemplating my purpose here. I was greatly tempted to change majors, but filled with anxiety about the time and effort I would have wasted the past two years. It was not without a substantial struggle that I was able to come to grips with the fears and doubts that floated through my mind, and though the situation has improved, it is still a day-to-day battle.

The heartbreak I experienced from these events proved to me that I really was in the right area of study. I have such a strong desire to improve, move up, and be recognized for my work. While I finally observed the true scope of the clarinet world, I decided there was no reason I did not belong there. Nobody in the world, not even the amazing artists at that camp, is the best. Everyone was special for their own reasons, and I knew that can be me one day.

  1. While in Camerino, I attended masterclasses led by famous clarinetists, such as Giora Feidman. He, for example, is a renowned Klezmer performer. Yet most of the students who played at the masterclass played classical pieces, not Klezmer. It was very interesting to watch Feidman relate his knowledge of Klezmer music to classical playing. When he did teach Klezmer, I found it extremely interesting because I have never been exposed to that before. The way he reaches inside himself and up to God to play music was very interesting to see. I learned a lot about teaching, as well as performing, by watching him work.

I was able to have four private lessons with an Italian clarinetist named Nicola Bulfone. He spent a little time with me working on technique, but the majority of our work focused on expressivity. He reinforced my previous teaching that yes, the proper notes are important, but what is more important is the message and the feeling you are communicating. The technical details are only important because they facilitate and uncover the beauty of the emotion. In addition to musical skills, this relationship developed my professional skills. I had to learn to work through a language barrier, and work together in an open and collaborative environment. Nicola is one connection I have in the larger world of clarinet, and my network can only grow from there.

Additionally, I played in the festival clarinet choir. This ensemble was made up of about thirty of the students attending the festival. We were mixed together on parts without regard to nationality, age, or experience level. In addition to choir pieces, we accompanied several solos and duets by the faculty of the festival. Being surrounded by so many amazing clarinetists was inspiring. The ease of performing when feeding off so many positive energies was an amazing feeling.

I had the time to befriend many of my peers at the festival from all over the world. While these were personal relationships, they may also be professional one day as well, if we all continue to be involved in the clarinet world. I learned so much about other cultures from the friends I made there

In addition to the music related skills I gained, my time in Italy was an incredible cultural experience for me. Studying and experiencing their culture, history, and traditions gave me a first-hand account of a completely different part of the world. Because of this experience, I am currently enrolled in a beginning Italian class. I am still feeling the effects of my time in Italy, as it is continuing to shape me into a well-rounded, open-minded individual.

Traveling to Italy and having all these experiences showed me how amazing the musical world is, and how much I truly want to be a part of it.

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  1. Following my first solo recital last month my clarinet professor, Dr. Hartig, and I have discussed my journey as a clarinetist thus far. Something that struck me was her observation that for my first two years at Ohio State, while I had been improving, I did not seem convicted. I did not seem to know if I really wanted this life- this career. The passion I had so long felt for music was gradually depleting. I could not have begun my junior year with lower self-esteem, but those two terrible setbacks I mentioned earlier showed me how much I wanted to succeed- how much I wanted to learn, improve, and impress. I seized my hopes and dreams once again, and have not stopped striving for them since. The difference has been noticeable not only to Dr. Hartig, but to the rest of the clarinet studio and my classmates. In the past semester, multiple people, both close friends and near strangers, have complemented me on my renewed passion, determination, and progress as a performer. It truly amazes me that my own journey has had the power to inspire my peers.IMG_3200IMG_3219

Yes, there is the odd day or week when I feel like my wheels are spinning but I am going nowhere. Yet at the end of these dips in confidence, I remind myself where I was not seven months ago, and how far I have come since. The fire is once again lit in my belly, and nothing is going to stop me from achieving my dreams. Seeing first-hand all the amazing experiences the real world holds for me outside of school and outside the country has given me the determination to keep studying. I am positive this would not be the case had I not traveled to Italy in August. I would not have been exposed to the real world, and not performed so poorly upon returning. If neither of those things had happened, I believe I would still be going through the motions with no direction in my mind or passion in my heart. Here I am, convinced I can succeed, that I can achieve all my goals and more, and none of it would have been possible without my participation in STEP.

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